May 27, 2010

REACHING that POINT

"I think it's getting to the point where I can be myself again.  It's getting to the point where we have almost made amends.  I think, it's the getting to the point that is the hardest part."
-Call and Answer, Barenaked Ladies

We've all been there.  You've just called it quits with your boyfriend.  Whether it was your idea or not, it hurts.

I've experienced heartache like this a few times in my life.  The first time was when I was 17 years old.  I had just dumped my first boyfriend, Ryan, because he didn't treat me the way I thought he should.  It was your typical high school drama, but it was a big deal for me at the time.  

I felt so sad without the company of my once boyfriend of 3 months.  I did whatever I could to get over him by spending time with my friends and family.  But, sometimes I embraced my heartache by chillin' in my room, listening to music and thinking about all the good ol' days.  It was really difficult, and some days I never thought I'd get over him.

One evening, a few months later, I was at home painting my closet door (thanks Mom and Dad for allowing me to do that, by the way) when my phone rang.  I answered and heard "Hey" on the other end.  I reluctantly said, "Hey" and then asked, "Who is this?"  I heard a chuckle, and then the voice said, "This is Ryan."  I have absolutely no idea why he called or what we talked about.  The only thing I remember is feeling so great that I did not recognize his voice.  In that moment, I knew I was at "the point."  I was over him.  

Sure, getting to "the point" sucked big time, but once I was there it was like all that pain and heartache never existed. 

After the whole Ryan thing, I moved away to college.  I met and dated new guys.  I went through more breakups and had more heartache.  Most were easy to deal with compared to my high school days.  I suppose I was better equipped emotionally to deal with the pain.  One, however, topped them all.  But that's a thought for a different time.

So, do any of you have any great "getting to the point" experiences?  Am I the only one that remembers stuff like this?

Thoughts?

3 comments:

  1. I can't remember exact moments when I reach that point. I always know I do, but I could never narrow it down like you just did.

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  2. I remember the point where I was over certain people and situations. My most recent ex-boyfriend, though...I don't really know. I think I just gradually felt better and moved on. I don't think there was actually a specific point where I knew I was over him.

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