May 11, 2010

my STORY

"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.  She never existed before.  The woman existed, but the mother, never.  A mother is something absolutely new."
-Rajneesh

I found out I was pregnant with my first child in May 2008.  Dustin and I had decided a few months earlier that we were ready to add a branch to our family tree, so I wasn't too surprised when I read the word "pregnant" on my home pregnancy test.  It was still a little surreal, though.

Instead of planning a big reveal, I immediately called Dustin at work to give him the big news. Our conversation went something like this:

Me:  "Hey, how's it going?"
D:  "Good.  How are you?"
Me:  "Good.  Guess what?"
D:  "What?"
Me:  "I'm pregnant."
D:  "Really?"
Me:  "Yeah."
D:  "Okay..."
Me:  "We can talk about it when you get home."
D:  "Sounds good."

Romantic, huh?

Over the next few weeks, as things started to set in, I realized something:  After a lifetime of hearing other women tell me about their pregnancies and what it was like to be a mom, I was finally going to have my OWN story, my own experiences.  It may sound silly, but it was such a liberating feeling.

My daughter, Belle, is now 16 months old.

I always expected motherhood to alter me.   I expected to be tired.  I expected to have fun.  I expected the throw up and messy diapers.  I expected a bond.  I expected the irrational worry and fear.  I expected all of that.

What I didn't expect was a love for my own story.  I love to analyze it. I love to compare it. I love to share it. It's my very own story, and no two stories are the same.

Thoughts?

6 comments:

  1. My husband claims that when we become moms we lose the ability to filter ourselves at all because we want to compare everything that's ever happened to us.

    To which I say, shut up man, this is interesting.

    Although I have to almost physically restrain myself from terrorizing pregnant women.

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  2. Your reveal story reminds me a lot of that time you guys got engaged!

    I have no story. Maybe someday, maybe not. Right now, I don't feel like I'm missing out. I like hearing everyone else's.

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  3. Oh my gosh, I didn't even think about how similar the reveal story was to our engagement! Good call, K-Lo!

    Yeah, what can I say? We're just not romantic people.

    I think you'll have a story, Karen. I really do. :)

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  4. Awesome post. I love hearing that you love your story. I love my story too. And we women can talk endlessly about our stories, can't we?

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  5. Before I had a baby I always wondered why women would constantly tell their story, now I get it. I want to tell my story all the time! Our stories are to special to each of us so we should share them, right?

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